Tuesday, December 20, 2005

I Got Your Back, Dena-D
















































ARDENA MARIE CARTER

March 12th, 1979 - September 11th, 2003

You always had my back, Dena-D. Now I'll forever have yours. Today, we were informed that the U.S. Attorney got the approval to charge that bastard who snatched you away from us with the death penalty. Imagine that. Two years to the very day your body was found. It's been real hard without you, babygirl. So hard. Too hard. Usually we'd be tearing up the mall's right about now. Shopping and buying like some high-level divas. Gotta tell you, the holiday's just 'aint the same. Not since you and mommy left. I'm acting like a big-ass baby right now, pouting and carrying on. I'm still mad, I'm still sad. Folks just don't understand. And you know how your big sis hates to make a spectacle of herself, but hey. What cha gonna do. So, like you (and Pac) always tried to remind me - I'll "Keep My Head Up." And try to "Smile." I know you and Mommy are looking after us. I'll try and hold it down 'till we're all face to face again, baby sis. 'Til then.

PS - I really meant what I told you.....When I grow up, I wanna be just like you.

Love,

J

12 comments:

That Girl Tam said...

Kinda seems odd that I'm leaving a comment for something so personal, but I wanted to let you know that I'm glad justice will be served. Indeed, keep your head up.

Supa said...

Thanks Tam. Truly.

African girl, American world said...

I am so saddned as I'm typing this....((((Hugs)))) to you and your family.

I can't even say another thing....

Shawn said...

You know how I feel. It's such a shame that torture isn't allowed. You guys were/are beautiful sisters. Much love to you!!!!

Ja said...

YES! I hope they do a deep turkey fry on the low life bastard.

I ain't got nothing but mad love for you Mal. I will lift you and your family, here with us, and those gone before us UP during this diffcult time.

Whenever you need me you know I'm here.

ogd

Neicy said...

My prayers are with you during this difficult time.

onecoolhoney said...

Nah, sis, some of us understand where you're coming from more than you know, and I'm mad and sad too.

I also change my mind now about the death penalty. They damn sure better do da damn thang.

Supa said...

Thanks so much you guys! Ya'll lifted my spirits a little with your messages! Blessings to you and yours.

Alli said...

I truly feel your pain and understand it since my father was murdered when I was 17. My pain to this day is that they never cought the killer. I hope the bastard that murdered your sister pays and you are able to have some closure. It is never easy even 11 years later. However, time is a wonderful thing to help heal the pain. You are doing a wonderful thing keeping the memory of your sister alive with your bloggs. The pictures are beautiful.

Dizzy said...

"It's so easy to regret things
After they done
Babies catchin' murder cases
Scared to laugh in the sun
The tragedies that we all need
Love in doses
In times like these we feel closest
The good die young"
Tupac

Yeah, I feel you sista! My mom passed four days after I turned twelve! Stay strong!

Supa said...

@ Dizzy - Thanks. I know ya feelin' me.

@ Allie - oh my gosh Allie. I'm so sorry to hear this about your dad! It's such a terrible burden. Thanks for your wonderful words...tell Nina we said hey!

Anonymous said...

you did your sis memory well >thechocolate10