So all that execution mess yesterday started me thinking....what must it feel like to know, with the utmost degree of certainty - that your life is about to come to an end within a few short hours? Hell, even within a few months or years? What do you say to yourself, the people in your life? Would you be resigned? Calm? Pissed? Sad? Peaceful? Regretful? Would you start to put certain things in motion that you've been putting off, and putting off...
Because really, we all know we're going to die. But unlike Stanley, we (probably) don't know the exact time, date, method, or circumstance for which it'll take place. Which is probably good, because how many of us could handle that type of knowledge. But then again - what if we did know? What if we had an unshakeable premonition (like Supa Sister has had since she was a kid), or a condition or disease (like Supa Sister's mom) that put a time period on our days? And an even better question - do we live every day like it may be our last, regardless? Why or why not?
All this reminds me of one of Supa Sister's favorite movies called "My Life Without Me". It's about this young married chick with two small daughters who finds out she has terminal cancer. She tells no one, and then decides to live her life with a passion she never had before.
Upon learning she had about two months to live, she wrote a THINGS TO DO BEFORE I DIE list in her journal, which was:
1. Tell my daughters I love them several times a day.
2. Find Don a new wife who the girls like.
3. Record birthday messages for the girls for every year until they're 18.
4. Go to Whalebay Beach together and have a big picnic.
5. Smoke and drink as much as I want.
6. Say what I'm thinking.
7. Make love with other men to see what it's like.
8. Make someone fall in love with me.
9. Go and see Dad in Jail.
10. Get false nails. And do something with my hair.
I've often wondered what it would feel like to write that list. What would be on my list? What would be on yours?
Also reminds me of one of my favorite quotes from Shawshank Redemption:
"Get busy livin', or get busy dyin'.."
Man. This is the kinda shit Supa Sister thinks about, when she's not oversleeping, over boozing, being stalked, or being silly.